What I'm Bringing Into 2020
I came up with a few angles for this end-of-year post. A few creative, a few not-so-much. Truth is, I haven’t been writing (publicly) as much as I used to. Part of me was worn out, the other part was focused on living in the moment and honoring my experiences. Since I started this blog I used every moment as something to share. People’s lives were changed because of it…but I also didn’t have enough time to dissect my own lessons because I was too busy flipping them into a lesson for others.
This year I stopped that. Not consciously at first; my priorities shifted when I started my certification program, so I naturally wrote less. But the more I went on, experiencing things without writing about them, the more I was able to honor what I was being taught. So this—trying to write a post about all the things that happened to me this year—seems a bit irresponsible. It feels like I’m going against what I’d committed myself to doing (or not doing) for the sake of a post. And if you know me, I don’t live like that.
So instead of harboring on 2019 and what I endured, I want to focus on the future. Here’s an ode to holding on to the good, letting go of the old, and carrying forward a better, stronger me. Feel free to create your own list and flourish for the new year.
Holding onto the good: an ode to the lessons of 2019
you deserve to prioritize yourself—no one else can do that for you.
self-love is the catalyst for real love
holding on to memories of past love doesn’t have to be a bad thing of love; it is okay to embrace the memories of what was, while anticipating the goodness of what’s to come.
a more specific, consistent prayer life
hardship isn’t what happens to you, it’s how you choose to let it consume you
choice: never forfeit your right to choose [yourself, prosperity, power, purpose, or anything] ever again
the journey is more important than the destination
don’t create a life to keep up with the Jones’; create a life so sacred that you’d rather clench it close to your chest and protect it, a life so divine that you simply want to nurture it and watch it bloom—then do exactly that: protect it, nurture it, and watch it bloom
not everything needs a response, it’s okay to not speak unless moved to do so
listen to your spirit, it’ll tell you everything you need to know
listen to God, He’ll tell you everything you need to do (and if He says nothing, that means be still)
Letting go of the old: an ode to releasing the pain and healing from the hurt
justifying toxicity—your own and others’
stop forgiving everyone but yourself
release your need to keep up with those around you
stop doubting God’s power
dismissing the grace bestowed upon my life
judgment—i’ve felt the weight of what it can do, and that’s not a burden worth carrying
perfectionism
self-doubt, fear, and worry
scarcity mindset
the fear of letting go—letting go doesn’t mean I will forget, it means that I’m breaking the bondage it has on my life
Carrying forward: an ode to the transformation that is to continue
allowing the people that love me to show up for me
clearly stating my expectations, boundaries, and desires to the people I choose to love, work alongside, and interact with
understanding the importance pace: sowing and reaping doesn’t happen in the same season—nor should it
honoring the difference between what’s meant to be experienced and what’s meant to be shared
a continued commitment to self-work
honoring my vulnerabilities and embracing my journey
I am not pursuing notoriety, influence, or popularity anymore—I am simply pursuing joy, and doing all things that contribute to that, unapologetically
*This list is not exhaustive.